Well today I woke so very very depressed and the first thing I did was cry. I realized I have been so busy doing fun things I haven't had chance to take care of myself and the problems in my life. I have been covering up so much hurt and pain. I also found out someone I kinda liked wasn't all that honest with me. Another thing is I miss my BH friends so much, I haven't even talked to Arvid in forever. I love my friends now but they are totally different then the blue hillers, and its a different kind of fun. I know that I am moving down there in a like 3 weeks but I am scared things aren't going to be the same. I also know that Katie Went and I are most definatly not friends anymore. I really am trying to cover up my feelings with that but inside I am really hurt. I have mastered faking who i am and how I am feeling, only certain peeps get to see the real deal. I am just glad I have awesome friends and I can get laid if I want...haha. I really am so fragile right now, but at the same time I know I can take a lot and I can push through this fucking bull shit and be the better person in the end. Okay I am going to get off my lazy ass now and start the day....much peace and love!! -maggie-