I am feeling so confused and hurt. I don't understand why everything seems to be changing for the worst. Everything was going so well for me, I had great friends, people that actually supported me. Then all of a sudden people start to change. For really no reason my best friends start changing, they start not hanging out with me, and when we do hang, they act like they know all. I am starting to think there is something so wrong with me. I am tired of getting so close to people, and thinking I am so lucky and then they start pushing away. This isn't the first time this has happened to me. I am tired of being shit on by friends and family. I can't wait to get out of this shitty town and begin a whole new life. I still have two more years of hell. I know that I shouldn't wish my life away, but I can't take this shit. If the rest of the summer is like this I am going to become seriously depressed again, I can't deal with that feeling. Its so hard to get along with my parents because we have opposite view points and they are not open minded. There are only a few people who I can trust now. At least I have them to go to, they are what keep me going. Sometimes making it through the day is like being underwater for a long period of time. It feels like I am suffocating. I can't wait to break free! -Maggie