Lately things just can't get any worse. Day by day I get stupider. I can't help butt keep asking questions.. that have no answers. It's driving me to insanity. What am I supposed to believe? That 'God' just came out of no where or he was just always here? I can't seem to grap the concept of FOREVER. No end. How is that possible? ah. It's all just so confusing. I hate this. My mother.. she doesn't care. about any one but herself. I can't even call her a 'mother' she's never been here. and she get's mad at me for saying I'll come home and then never show when she's said she'd come home for days but I haven't seen her in weeks. She says that my Grandparents "took us from her" where would we be right now if they hadn't. On the streets.? Drug attics? Dead. Gah she upsets me. she took my phone. more drama. Summer is soon ending. I'm not ready for school. Not ready to fail. "/ I've decided. I suck at this game called life.