I hate him. But at the same time, I want him to love me. I know everything he said, was a lie and I know he knows that I know I caught him. But then again I want him to lie to me and say that it is true. And that he wants me to take him back. I want to want to take him back. But honestly I really don't. I've seen the true him. To tell you the truth I saw it all along. I don't know why I insisted that he was such a good guy, when even I knew that he wasn't. All the lies I made up defending him and excused I made for him. Why was I so stupid for him? I've learned my leason. No, I haven't. That's what I said about the last guy that hurt me. I'm attracted to assholes. Not anymore. I mean it this time. Hopfully. I don't deserve being treated like shit. But then again, I'm not the best girlfriend either. I think I just want to wait for a while. If something happens it happens. If not, I can wait. I'm worth waiting for.