I don't know what I want anymore. Or maybe I'm just now Figuring it out. Right now I'm not the person that I want to be. I'm not who I used to be. I used to be the 'good kid' The one that everyone was compared to, "why can't you be like Alisha?" It's not that I want to be 'better' than everyone else. I just want to be good again. I want my old grades back. My old friends. My positibe outlook on life. I'm not proud of what I've become. I never, ever, thought that I would ever be like this. I never wanted to. Now I need help more than ever. But I can't ask for it. It's just too hard for me. I'm so used to doing things myself now. Being independent. Not relying on anyone. But I have to ask or I'm too afraid of what I'll end up as in life. I'm going to graduate and I'm going to succeed in life. I just have to rap my mind around that and go for what I want. Right? Anythings possible. I just have to keep reminding myself of that. and only that.