blank can be used to accurately describe my feelings. ill-wishing customers roll off my back. very unlike me. im disinterested. slightly disheartened. feeling thinner than normal. not in the physical sense, but in the sense of intellect. who am i kidding? the past year and a half. slowly but surely the knowledge i knew as mine (however useless), is diminished. maybe slaving at b&n will deter my brain from purging itself of the precious idiocies i regarded as knowledge. havent been watching history,a&e,tlc,discovery health,cnn. not reading time or b&w at all lately. nothing but working,futurerama and family guy. ive read only adbusters cover to cover. and a new magazine ive stumbled across:colors. there are no words or similies to describe its contents,so i wont waste my cells. i want to be in college right now. i shouldve signed up for fall. i want to take math and actually learn it. i want to be smart. retain knowledge. be able to take things away from the expirence. most of all,i want to fucking take pictures. i want to learn how to use my camera. i think thats all im interested in. school wise. fin.