work is terrible. im behind. i cant bring myself to do anything while there. execpt wish i wasnt. been very depressed. im thinking about increasing effexor back to 300mg/day. i was doing so good. i think its really just work though,because when im home with ry,im fine,tired,but not depressed. these next few days are gonna be hard,im working 3-close and he works form 8-5ish. for a few weeks ive wanted to get ryan something.like a present.just something to give him because he gives me so much. he too such good care of me when i got my teeth out,and he cleans up after me,and is just a great person.i feel like i cant convey how i feel about him well enough. need a shower and to clean up my clothes.