I feel like my insides are caving in. Like i'm gonna vomit. i wonder what it felt like for you. probably worse since i was at fault and you thought everything was great. like i'm going to vomit and cry forever. why is this bothering me so? why are you moving on while i'm stuck?? why can't i stop freaking out? i hate myself. so much. i brought this on alll by myself. things were so nice. were. was. isn't