i had finally become okay with the fact we werent going to be back together. and all i really wanted was closure. i didnt expect to be sucked back in. i didnt stop it.. i should have. i could never look at him and not say no. im powerless against those eyes. i will never be able to resist them. and if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. and you can tell me how vile i already know that i am. i'll grow old and start acting my age. i'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. call me a safe bet. i'm betting i'm not. i'm glad that you can forgive. i'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. if it makes you less sad, i'll move out of the state. you can keep to yourself. i'll keep out of your way. and if it makes you less sad, i'll take your pictures all down. every picture you paint, i will paint myself out. you are the smell before rain. you are the blood in my veins. i thought this was bad. imagine the next time its "over."