she believes that life isnt made up of all that it used to be. you know.. some parts of me think that i would take you back, anytime, no matter what, no matter when. but i'm working on that. because you're the biggest asshole i've ever met. and i hate myself for allowing you to run and ruin my life for so long. i can't cut the ties just yet. but i'm getting there. yesterday was my birthday and i spent a good hour of it crying my eyes out in my bathroom. i cant go on like this, and you know what- i wont. i owe it to myself. no one else. i dont complain about this to my friends or my family- i dont owe it to them. i owe it to myself and any good that is to come my way. because sometimes when tears cloud up your eyes you can't see the things that could potentially make you happy.