i dreamt of a fever one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart with heat to melt these frozen tears, burned with reasons as to carry on into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow but i sweare that i would follow anything just to get me out of here but i fell for the promise of life without a purpose but i know that it's impossible now and so i drink to stay warm and to kill selected memories cause i just cant think anymore about that or about him tonight