you have this way of meaning everything and nothing to me at the same time -- don't kiss her and cover up memories you've had of me* -- you sat me down beside myself to show me all the reasons i was wrong for you was this for real? it's hard to tell cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into i'm gonna overcome this, paper hearts can't win this time and all along i should have known this wasn't your dream, it was mine i know you wanted me to give up this life to be everything i was back when you had the hands my heart was in i was never good at goodbye... can i swallow this bottle whole? so this brain in my head can forget your face today i couldn't stay awake feels like i'm drowning in this firewater lake i won't be sleeping much tonight it's not the same without you lying by my side so perfect. i'll never forget. i'd never want to.