God I feel a bit like shit. All the memories of what I was trying to forget, I remember now. It's so horrible what people can do to themselves. The outcome of a horrible experience is most likely going to be horrible. About a month ago..my friend attempted suicide. He wrote a email to me and others asking for a response in whether he should go through with it or not. I get this email a day later. I responded. But I would've been too late, he never would've known that I really do care for him (we're not all THAT close) So then, me thinking everything is pretty much not going sucky, he tells me that his friend committed suicide. This is number 5 of his friends. And it hit me then that my friend almost committed suicide. And I burst out crying. For him, for the person who killed themself, for the fact that I can't do anything at all to help. And it still haunts me even though I dont know his friends, I feel soooo bad and I terribly wish I could do something. But I can't. And that's basically what I just remembered. If you know how to help someone get over it with out bringing back horrible memories please let me know because I'm completely clueless.