"It's strange how a family can be torn apart by something so simple as a pack of wolves" Am I right?...random quote..dont ask where i found it.. Anyways. happy belated whatever holiday just passed..... Not in the holiday spirit anymore anyway..thank GOD it's over...i really dont know what to say, im just really ticked off right now. Procrastination always gets the best of people, especially me. For some reason it acts as some sort of addicting creative habit, you can always find something to ensure your procrastination whether it be staring at a blank piece of paper that should be filled with writing or watching the fire burn. My procrastination takes form of audio waves. They've been tearing and pulsing in my mind for quite some time now. OH. have you ever felt different feelings for two different people? And on top of that have you fallen seriously behind in school? on top of that zone out from music? on top of that become slowly so incredibly sick of yourself you feel like those stereotypical "emo" kids who sit in their rooms in the dark cutting themselves wishing that they could step out of themselves forever? On top of that wonder where the hell these run-on sentences are coming from?...Who the fuck knows. I want to go the easy route and just cut myself off from the outside world, you know..isolation time for a little bit. but no. the real world doesn't allow you to have time to yourself. it just always wants you to keep moving forward and working and somehow magically keeping composure and optimism! Its enough to make a person like me sick...im already sick of me enough why be that way only to find that im even more sick of myself?...any advice on HOW exactly to "love" yourself?...i wish i could find that happy place again... One word: oy. Four words: self pity is ridiculous