...From here to Tiananmen Square. Oh yeah mother fuckeeeerrr I'm gonna kick your fucking derrierierrrieeeerr. Let's see. I have not been doing much at ALL. Homework, talking to meh lover Grizzleh, and dealing with my psychotically raged mother o.o She's a) Accusing me of turning anorexic. b) worried about my colleges. c) worried about her job. d) pissed off at the entire world and its full existance. So reason d) doesn't make the situation(s) any better at all. In exactly one week from today I will be in California with my love ^_^ I can't, honestly, be any more excited than I am right now. This past month and a half has been the longest month and a half of my entire life in all my experiences with months and halfs of them. It's hard sometimes to be fully enthusiastic about things when there's other things on your mind...like sex, where you're going to be in 8 months, and how you're going to get to where you want to be. It's disheartening when failure is feared becaues it stops you from doing what you want. That's my issue these days: fear of failures. So why try?...That's what my mind likes to con me into thinking even though I know, as Jenna, that it's not true. Yet I do it anyway. Excellent strategy.. I wish I had help. I feel like I've been misguided these past four years. My parents have never been there to help me. No one has been here to help me except for my friend who's already graduated and all the way in California. I have these feelings sometimes though that I'm supposed to know, myself, what the hell to do. Like I'm supposed to know what to do right off the bat. I wonder how people get straight A's in highschool. I've been told my mind is A worthy but how do you analyze things and apply them to what you do? Mental blocks cause failure. And deep holes... Yes I said 'deep' and 'hole' in the same sentence, get over it. So for now my rant will come to an end. That's what went through my mind and has been going through my mind. I wish I had a personal life sorter. Farewell my lovelies