So, first day of school. I started at 8:30! I have the worst schedule this semester. I start at 8:30 practically every day. I have no idea how I'm gonna manage that. I'm definitely not a morning person. Plus, because I failed ALL my classes last semester, now I have to sign this contract that says i'm gonna try harder and crap... sigh... To think i actually missed school! The good thing about starting early is that i also finish early, on Tuesdays anyway, but anyways, the fire alarm went off because there was smoke or something somewhere, whatever i don't know. But the point is we all had to evacuate, and and i was wearing this T-shirt, so we were all freezing our asses off outside. It was like -30. So not such a good start. After that, I met up with my "friends" that I missed so much. At first it was ok... but there's this guy, Dom, that was just giving me an attitude all day and just being really mean to me. I had no idea why, and i really really can't take that kind of thing. It makes me want to break down and cry and go hide in a corner forever. I've noticed that i'm quite emotionally unbalanced... And i like, constantly need acceptance and approval with everything I do, otherwise I just feel totally alienated and alone, and, just messed up. ANYWAY. That's what Dom made me feel like today. On top of that it was So early, and I was pretty cranky. God, I was feeling really awful about the whole thing just now, but, i dunno writing about makes me feel way better. But I think i figured out what his problem is. I think he's upset about last Saturday, cause I made out with that guy. He probably thinks i'm a slut now. I don't think he's really jealous. Maybe just disapointed. But i've decided I don't care. I'm tired of trying to please everyone, and I just want to do what i want. And no one can stop me... So there.