Sigh, god hates me. Oh, i know he doesn't. But why does it feel like fate is out to get me? Everything keeps going wrong & it sucks. And i'm too tired and exhausted to do anything. Oh and Bobby? sigh. Of course it was too good to be true. I knew he liked me, just, cause, you know when someone likes you right? Anyways, i thought it was kinda weird that he wasn't getting over me, because any guy that likes me usually gets bored with me within two weeks. But not him. I should have realised. neways i saw him today, and he got this, like, mohawk. I was like"what! no! But he was so cute!" Why? why would anyone do something like that? A mohawk. It's not huge or anything. He just shaved his head and left the middle part unshaved. And his hair's not to long so it was more of a low mohawk. But it still looks terrible. So I was kindof upset there for a while. Plus i was so tired i couldn't even talk, so that contributed to my bad mood. He saw me, and he kept looking at me, trying to say hi, but I just looked away, and avoided him all day. I feel pretty sheity, and mad. Not that Bobby did that, but at my own shallowness. I liked this guy so much, and i thought it was about more than looks, and now he gets a different haircut and i don't like him anymore? what a bitch. I don't understand anything anymore. I think i'm incapable of having any actual feelings for a guy. I hate them too much. Because they're all assholes. Except one. And i'm on a mission to find him. I thought it was Bobby for a while there, ...but... wait! He's not an asshole! I'm the shallow bitch! Oh my God! What if, every guy isn't an asshole, but I am! I'm the asshole! What a Horrible person I am!