I don't know what to do anymore, this is fucking awesome. I have no family. I have my boyfriend that I don't know if I can trust and my dad which can't really talk to me or do anything with me since my mother and sister will berate him for it. Oh and guess what, Luke is gone again, I fall asleep because I'm sick and he's out the door. I'm so alone there's no point in continuing this stupid pathetic excuse for a life. Theres nothing to lose or gain, like the song says. I would love to see Sam's face when she gets the news, knowing it's her fucking spolied ass's fault. Fuck it, I'm doing it, no more pain.