12:06 PM My mom didn't wake me up this morning because I wasn't feeling well at all when I came home last night. I was disappointed. Finally dragged myself up and went downstairs. A blank message on machine. Turned out it was from Teresa. She was calling to give me a ride. *sigh* She called me, and was obviously annoyed/disappointed that I hadn't been awake. I sat around and work on chapters seven and eight for Chemistry. Then I did some spanish work. I still have to finish writing my book for Spanish and do a couple worksheets for geography. And 12 more problems in chapter 8 for Chem. I'm such a procrastinator. Tomorrow morning I need to go into the principal's office and ask to go around during 3rd hour and collect money for 30 Hour Famine. I am so looking foward to it this week. It will be awesome. Yesterday was frusterating. I woke up in the morning and hunted for Lauri's phone number and couldn't find it anywhere. So then I sat around in hopes that someone would call about going to Lee's or Smith's or one of those places to collect money. But no... I left at 2ish. Mark and I took Sadie on a walk to the Hillcrest park. Bryan was there setting up a slack line! So exciting! So we sat around and waiting for Stephan, but he didn't show up, so we took Sadie home. Ended up going back and playing on the slack line for a while. It was awesome fun. Also met up with Ben and Anna at the play(Wind in the Willows). Ended up being not so awesome. But, seeing Ben was good. And Brady was hilarious as the Chief Weasel. So that's basically all I did...I dunno.

5:39 PM I hung out with Whitney today. She kept telling me I was so skinny. And that she was so jealous of me. How I looked anorexic. How she wished she had my stomach. I wanted to curl up and die. I felt so uncomfortable standing there in front of her trying on clothes. *sighx2* Blah blah blah. I don't know.

5:32 PM Christmas was an interesting thing. Christmas Eve I went to church and helped sheperd the little kids who were scream-singing Go Tell It on the Mountain. It was cute. They also read a book, called Room for a Little One, I think. They set up the creche(nativity scene), while Ruth read it to them. It was cute. Came home and hung out with the family and watched A Christmas Story. Such a good movie. Then we had spaghetti when Matt got home from church and opened presents, like we always do. I was spoiled. I got clothes, And an iHome, and giftcards, a new watch. I also got a silver purity ring that says 'forgiven' on it and a little, very simple cross. They're both very pretty. Christmas we went to SLC for dinner. I had to watch children(blah). Mattie and I escaped at 3ish and got lost looking for an entrance ramp to the highway. It was a good time. Now I am here. Ryan and I were supposed to hang out. Bah.

6:04 PM I feel loved. It's quite nice, I must say. It's been such a long time since a boy has really cared about me. Today was fantastic. Liz and I played for a long time. Caramochas. Yeah. I don't really have anything to say. *sigh*

12:43 PM Leaving for t3h day date soon. I am excited. Very excited. We are going ice skating. Then to Kathryn's. Then to dinner and dance. Back to Kathryn's. Woo. And I hate the Christmas pagaent.

4:57 PM I miss you. I wish this would be okay. I don't like it. But, when I'm wishing you'd be there, I remember you don't care anymore. never so crushed.

1:24 PM I wish I could belly dance. It was so beautiful. By the end I was cheering inwardly for the end. I miss home. I hate when people are mad at me. cos that's just ridiculous.

3:05 PM I just want to stay here. I'd give anything to stay. I wish he were getting home an hour earlier. I just wanted to say goodbye.

6:51 PM six days. It's a pretty number, I must say. I love love love love you. I'm not sure what I am doing. I wish I had my feeelings all sorted out. Unfortunately, I don't. Back to my cave I suppose. Hehe. Cave women. Good times.

9:55 PM He's gone. I'm sad, I think. Today was princess day. I forgot, but someone brought a bunch of Burger King crowns. Everyone kept asking if it was my birthday. I spent the afternoon with Teresa. I love her. We had dinner with the family and played Hangman. It was awesome. She asked which of two I was in love with. I'm not in love with either of them. I wish I weren't so silly. I wish I knew what I wanted. y.o.u.a.r.e.a.m.a.z.i.n.g.

8:24 PM I don't know what it is about you. You make me smile. Too bad you are untouchable. I don't know what to say anymore. I am at a loss for words.

9:26 This song reminds me of Brady. When I got home from the game today, I had two messages from him. 'I miss you.' It made me sad. I miss him a lot, too. Today was good. I didn't see Pete though, so I didn't get my parade. *sigh* It's okay though. I went to a hockey game this evening because Molly didn't want to go alone. It was good. I talked to Steve Kent for a long time. He's an interesting kid. He probably thinks I'm crazy and have a crush on him. He probably thinks I'm a little kid. That's okay though. It's not like I have to see him anyways. I talked to Katie today. Highlight of my day. But that's because she's way amazing. I dunnooo 35 days...

8:21 PM I love Dashboard right now. And I will adore anyone who listens to them with me. Today was crap. I took the PSAT and screwed it up and then I had a band clinic. I have a test in Spanish2 tomorrow and I haven't prepped for it at all. And I'll have geography, and Spanish2 homework to make up. suck0rz. But, tonight kicked at-double-dollar. Teresa came and picked me up at like 4:30 for Inside Out. Just as a note, IO doesn't start until 6... We ran to the ATM(we won again--she has the magic code!) and then we drove to Taco Bell and got major food. Like, 3 soft tacos, 2 bean burritos, and a large cherry pepsi. It was awesome. We drove to Lundstrum and ate our food and got out bubbles. Took lots of pictures. OMG! There's glass in my taco Teresa! hehe...I'm so mean to that poor girl. XD. We played Bible Pictionary at IO, cos we could. Girls vs. Boys. Orginally, we wanted it to be me, Resa, Ben, and Jimothy. But Laurie told us it had to be girls vs. boys. We won though. hahaha. What now? We blew bubbles outside the back door. We were all catching them on our tongues. Like 4 people almost kissed me, because we would go after the same bubble at the same time. It was crazy! And that just escalated to pinning people against brick walls and dogpiles onto of Michael and who knows what else. Our first physicaly lesbian moment! And hopefully our last, cos well, I'm straight! Yeah...it was sweet. We listened to So Beatiful by Dashboard. I love that song. A lot. The end. ps...call me. I want to hang out with you.

10:18 AM Our conversations are kick at-double-dollar. Thursday was awesome. I went with Teresa to listen to Jazz Pudding. She bought me a large coffee. Mattie and his friends ask about my date with Dan and I laughed at them and walked away, after telling them it was fun. And yesterday was excellent. Chelsey stole me for my 4th hour to see Ben. And the game was good. We won, as usual. And Scottie took me home and we sat in his car for an hour talking about anything and everything. I ♥ that kid. He's amazing.

5:17 PM Today was good. I got an 80 out of 90 on my Geography test. It was better than most people. It was also better than I was expecting. Yay for barely studying? I have to draw a tree and make it say something about me. I don't know how. I keep tasting the toothpaste that is sitting on the desk. It tastes good. I've taken way too many painkillers in the past three days. I want a boyfriend. Because I'm selfish.

9:54 PM Happy Birthday sitDiary. You are wonderful. Also happy birthday to me, I suppose. 16..woo? Yeah...that's it. I miss Ohio. I wish it would rain. This sucks. I got to talk to him today. He still misses me.

8:00 AM I dunno...last night was interesting. I was planning on chilling at home, waiting for Katie to call, then going to hang out with my Lizikiger. It made me very upset when all those plans fell through. Elaine's leaving for Austria Tuesday. So, I ended up needing/wanting to go to her going away party. I don't think I've seen that many pairs of converse in one place in a long time. It was relatively good though. We messed around at Lundstrum for a while, and then watched some weird Japanese Vampire movie. I know more about chickens than you will ever know! Basically... I got home and a million people had left me messages. I dont' think Liz got my phone message either, so I felt really bad. *sigh* She thought I went with Cait to the party. Nope. I hardly even talked to Cait, except to semi-yell at her and inform her she needs to make good decisions. And now I'm not sure if Teresa is taking met o church, so I"m going to get ready anyways and hope that I'm ready if she ends up coming to get me. The end.

3:20 PM 2nd day of School. It's okay. I like English enough. Liz's in that class. And um...the rest of my classes are fine. Band sucks. Majorly. And Evan transfered out. *teardrop* I was wandering around during lunch with Molly and we walked past the band room and the door was open. I saw Chelsea and then I realized Pete was there too! I was so excited. I waited for the end of lunch and then I ran and tacklehugged him. It was amazing. He's such a cool kid. Alex tackled me this morning and bit me when I saw him between 1st and 2nd. It was nice to see him. *smiles* Scott showed up after school! Yay! He agreed to take me how cos he's a sweetheart. I swear if I run into Amy, I'll hit her. Really. I don't understand how people can be that mean. We saw Craig and I made him pull over. Cos I'm a jerk. And I ran and hugged him. Yay! And Scott was sad some more about Amy. GRRRRR. Last night was fun also. Never again though, I think. Oh well. He was weird at school today. It was a little sad for me. But it'll be okay. I wanted to talk to Scott about stuff in the car, but I didn't. I sat in his car for a while, but then decided against it and got out. Yeah...*shrugs* But I'm done.

10:09 PM Firstly, my internet has been shut down at home. I won't have internet access all the time until at least the 22nd. But, for now, I am using the compuer at the Duplays. The show was amazing. I don't really want to type it all up cos I'm lazy. He promised to come see me this week. I smiled so hard.

2:22 AM Okay...I have a story... So...talking to Katie. And I come to this realization that I'm leaving in 7 days, so why not inform everyone of my crush on Brady, just to see their reactions. Talking to his little brother at this point in time...And I say "What do you think of me starting with Reese?" She told me bad idea. She thinks Reese has a crush on me. I guess I'm mad hott to him. *wink* Actually, I'm just hott, and 'edgy'. Wooo. Haha. Aren't I so lucky, that the guy I likes little brother likes me? *screams* It's so funny. Haha...I quit. And I get to ride like 30 minutes-1 hour in the car with the pair of them...Merr....Hehe.