maybe it wouldnt hurt as much if my memory of our friendship was gone..i wish i had never sat by you..never gone to your house..never been there for you when you cried..when u laughed..when i actually was able to help you..i just want to save you..dont you get it i dont want you to hurt..i want to take all of your pain away..make it be my pain instead..you have him now and now i cant save you..he is..everything i have said to you doesnt matter..when i told you that you were beautiful u didnt believe me..and now he says it to you and you smile..he hasnt been there like i have..why are you choosing his side..why is he taking you away...what am i suppose to do..im in pain but i dont think you notice because you are too busy with him..why do u say you tell me everything..you dont..you dont let your feelings out..i am just upset..i cant be your big sister anymore and protect you and now i feel useless..dont your get that all i have ever done is cared about you..and when i am mad there is something beyond what you think..i just miss you..i dont like it one bit...i want it all to be like it was before