You think you are over someone/something and then one random act changes everything. He called me last night at like 10 and i was watching a movie with my dad so i didnt want to interupt bonding time..then at like 12 i looked at my phone and found out who it was that called and i almost dropped dead... why..because he hasnt called me in over two months..with no explanation of why..one night he says i will call you tomorrow night and then over 2 months later he calls..but he isnt the same..he is being nice..and saying i'm sorry...not like him at all..all he wanted to do was talk about my feelings.. i got to yell at him and that felt wonderful and he didnt even hang up..he told me that just because he hasnt called me for 2 months that doesnt mean he hasnt thought about me..i told him to go write a love novel because he always knows what to say to make a girl fall for him but buddy i'm not that girl..i am a girl that doesnt want to be used..i dont want to be the person you turn to when you feel like it..i want someone who loves me and that crap you say about loving me isn't working..i'm sick of his lies and his work..and his farm..and his other little gf's..i dont care..he just thinks i am going to sit and wait for him to figure out if you really want to be with me..cause i dont have time for that nor do i want to be the girl you want me to be. i want to be in a relationship not this dream world you live in..now that i have vented about him i will tell you about my other guy problems..ok so i have known this guy forever he is my cousin's cousin and its never been more than that when he is sober..he is a sweet guy and i like him but when he is drunk he is in love with me..does this mean he only likes me when he is drunk or does it mean that he can be truthful when he is drunk..i really dont know..we only see each other like once a year because he moved to the cities with his brother..then there is this other guy who i hang out with a lot..but i dont want to fall for him..i think he likes my friend but she tells me that he has always been the guy who is there for her..she wanted to set us up but i just dont know how i feel..im so confused right now with my life..i just hope it all works out the way i want..