ok... so i can't sleep again... i hate thinking about things... i just feel so bla when he isn't here.... when someone i love isn't around.. like right now... i just want my boo... or one of the many people around that you know cheer me up... i'm happy on one part... i have his heart with me... he actually carved a heart out of wood for me... it was so sweet... it's just one of his things it's adorable.... but he still isn't here... doing those sweet things he does... i hate that he had to go to his sisters to watch the kids... and hang out with her... but he was so happy... and i am glad... i just wish he would have told me... am i wrong for wishing he told me... i don't think i am but maybe i am there are alot of things going threw my mind as of right now... like is moving in with him... and to another state worth it.. or sould i go to texas....... i love him i realy do and it's a new start away from my past with a new begining... it's true love really it is...... when he isn't here... when we are apart even for a minuet... i feel my heart breaking... like my world is missing something if that's not true then what is... i think that maybe i might just be lonely because i am so used to him being right here next to me... holding me... i can't wait to see him... i know he will make everything alright... because everytime he is next to me... i smile as soon as i know i have to leave his side it hurts.... expecially when he is gone this long... a few days... it's only the begining... of a long time without him.... december... i'm moving with him in december... that is only.... a few weeks away... then i'll wish he wasn't always around but right now i miss him and it sucks... i never like missing anyone... i am ready to go home though... i wish it were time for my dad to get here... so i can go get my wallet so i can drive again.... wow... i wrote alot thus far.... i should stop now or i never will.... i'm out of here for now.... Miriah