it's a cyle you find someone that you like and want to be with and you're happy for a while cause you have something to look forward to everyday and to brighten up your life but then something usually happens that ruins everything and you feel sad and stary to hate that person becasue they hurt you then you get bitter about the entire thing and snap at ppl when they mention it and eventually you don't care and wish it never happened because there nothing more you can do about it GOD I DON'T WANT TO HATE HIM OR GET BITTER OR FORGET because when things were good there was too many things that were just right I don't get it or understand it and I just don'tknow what to do about it anymore I don't want this to end up like every other bad thing that has happened to me I'm trying so hard to make this time different but I just don't know how I just don't know how