ok fine this is the last entry im gonna write tonight and i pray that tomorrow is a hell of alot better than today and tonight was anyway for everyone im sorry im sorry if i was mean or i didnt tell u things or anything else thats my fault or that u want to blame on me ok im sorry that u think im such a bitch ok im sorry im tired of hating ppl im tired of fighting and im tired of everything being such a mess i thought everything was ok but nope nothing i think is ever right or anything that a say for the record and if i bother those other 7 ppl w/ skiing and stuff im sorry that thats my one passion that makes my life right and helps me forget everything bad and crappy that happens im also sorry if u think i only care about kristin i'd love to give u a minute in my mind to see how many ppl i do care about only a mintnue bc u wouldn't be able to handle everything else i got in there no offense to anyone and saying i can deal w/ more stuff that u can which i kno ppl will take it that way but im just saying i care about more ppl than i probably should and when i really can't stand someone and it would make me happier if i just forget about them i get me head torn off so im supposed to just be happy all the time and pretend like everything is fine and dandy i dont think so. im tired of living up to everyone else's expectations and ignoring what i want so im sorry if i upset anyone w/ what i talk about or what i like but thats who i am and if u dont like it then i guess u dont like me.