I have come to the realization that that I have been angry and have had hateful thoughts in my mind most of the time over the last two weeks. Although I have good reason, considering what Melissa did to me, I'm really tired of feeling like this. This is not who I am and I'm not going to let some one who did not care about me and treated me the way she did to make me be like this. I'm tired of wasteing my time being mad at her at work and thinking of ways to possibly make her mad. She will have her's coming to her and its between her and god now. I'm not going to be rude or hateful any more. It's not who I am and it makes me un-happy. She can do what ever she wants but her actions are no longer going to affect the way I feel. She is a bad person and I hope for her sake she straightens up some time in her life. I just want to be happy again and I have a lot on my slate along with this to bring me down and I dont want to feel like this any more. From now on I'm going to be happy and do things that make me happy. I filmed Julie's football game and System Overloads concert last week and relized that I miss filming things like that. I havn't really worked on making videos lately and that is one of the things that I enjoy doing a lot. I just want to get back to being me. I'm not a hateful person, I'm not mean, and I generally like every one. As far as relationships goes, every time I look for one I just end up loseing. So I'm not looking any more. If something happens thats great but trying to find some one just ends up disappointing me cause I'm not the kind of guy most girls want. I'm just going to be me and see what happens. Till Next Time Donald