God i new friday night would come back and kick me in the ass! Some of my friends from dingwal were there rosses girlfriend and her mates. I get on really well with them and there great girls but well they dont really party like i do. They dont drink, smoke or do drugs and thats great for them but its just not me. I suppose i should have been more honest about who i am with them. Anyway they were there on friday night and are not happy with me just now that i can deal with cause well im not really the same kind of person as them wen im at gigs. Well anyway they are not talking to me now and i found out today that its not just cause i was wasted. They think i was flirting with Ross. That i can deal with cause i know i wasn't or if i was it was drunken and every guy in the room was gettin it. The thing is if emily feels that way and is threatened by it and talks to Ross about it then im sure he would cut me out. And thats understandable cause he loves her but i really dont want that to happen. I cant believe they think that though i mean how can u flirt with one of ur close mates? how could i flirt with Ross i mean hes totaly head over heals about emily. Why would i want to come between that for god sake i dont even fancy ross so why would i wen i fancy his mates god its soooo messed up just cause im mates with him they think i feel like that for him.Ahh im so pissed off.There is no doubt that he will do as emily asks.And i respect that i just hope to hell that she realises im not interested! oh god nothing is going right just now with anything i need to get out of here and be away from everything there is too much happening i cant take it all in.My head feels so full the things that are supposed to keep it grounded are swimming around ahh god sake i wish i could just go into a deep sleep and not feel anything for a few hours but i cant even do that. Im so sleepy!...well im all done if anything else happens ill keep u updated. Eli xXx