Heya everyoone i read a really great book today called where rainbows end. I wont tell you what its about because you should all read it and find out for yourself. But it made me think about how much i miss a certain person. Im not going to put his name but all the people that need to know who it is do know if they just cast their minds back to when i was my most upset recently. I really wanted to e-mail him today just to tell him that i miss him and that im thinking about him then i think what right do i have to do that? If she doesnt want me to have anything to do with him then what right do i have to e-mail him to let him know i dont want to lose his freind ship. But i do miss him so much all my mates are great and i love them its just i miss the perspective that he put on things he knew what was important and what there was no need to worry about for god sake im talking like i lost a boy freind but thats the thing the whole time i was friends with him i couldnt think of him in "that" way i just cant do it. Oh well thats what im feeling just now. There isnt really much happening i miss rachel to pieces we dont spend near enough time together anymore!But when we get back to school we will everyday at the front of the bus...Oh rach i just thought u know how we say we are geeks??well u know how all the cool people sit at the back in those american shows well we are going to be the geeks sitting at the front LMAO oh god i love what we have become rachy clair!And we dont need men to be happy and we dont need to be sticks we just need to be able to be happy thats all ... well that and some vodka! oh i miss u rachy!!!god im sad I also miss glasgow but well craig hasnt really txt me in a while and alanna doesnt work so she never gets money in her fone oh dear well ill see alanna soon anyway Oh yay france soon cant wait for the heat! i just hope the guys and gals from the other school are alright and maybe not neds, skaters or emos would be great then i could maybe talk to them more easily. Oh i got a new cd from jake and it has a studio version of parting gift by inme im listening to it just now and remembering how much i love inme and dave oh how much i want to go to a gig right now oh well i better go oh i e-mail my cousin Andrew hope he gets back in contact with me it would be nice to know him My aim is to tell the people i miss and love that i miss and love them i dont know if ill manage to tell ross ... oh well only time will see love ya all xxx oh ok if there is anyone out there that reads my diary and think they shouldnt comment because i dont like them or anything like that please do im tryin to re-build bridges people but i cant do it on my own. x