heya everyone not going out with barry anymore it was too far away,that i can deal with. found out the same night that we split up that he had had sex with rachel (a friend of mine) on the night of the ruthven dance. Its such a shame because neither will admit it. They think im stupid because not only was it obvious that they had and i knew that the day after just wasnt admiting it to myself but also they have both told friends of mine. They really really much think im thick. rachel also admited it to a friend of mine the other day and told them that she wasnt going to admit it to me. probible the most hurtful thing is that she let me carry on going out with him after it happened would a real friend not tell you that your bf is cheating on you? i mustnt have meant a lot to her if she can do this and not even care about it,really shes not even batting an eye lid shes just letting me believe it. coral (her little sis) just had a go, for some reason its all my fault now that we arent talking. The thing is wen i found out i wasnt going to tell rachel i knew because i didnt want to end the friendship we had, i was ready to let it slide and just not trust her as much,but sadly barry decided to tell her that i knew. Barry went in a total huff today wen i told him that rachel had told dukey,he wont believe me that she told him which i found quite funny to be honest.oh well better off with out him i guess. i feel fine today yesterday and the day before were a little hard. i only felt sick today wen i had to be in the same place as rachel but im sure that will get easier. i like it how she is making no atempt to talk to me about it at all oh well enough about that. we went to roller bowl today,it was good fun.we went because dukey is moving to edinburgh in 2 weeks. i used a slightly bigger ball than i had been using and ended up droping it and breaking my nail and cut myself...dnt know where i cut myself tho i just saw blood and then i wiped it off and there was no cut,strange!going to ness tomoro with dukey and steph think joanna is going to come aswell that will be cool going to get a new phone,going on contract £20 a month 500 txts and 50 minutes.ive been told its 500 minutes so that will be even better. going to have to get black trousers for school and work aswell seen as i only have one decent pair left...oh just reminded myself rachel still has my shirt and trousers will have to get dukey to get them bk.ill txt him later.i wanted to meet up with bg tomoro if hes in town. i called him but he never answered dunno wats up but maybe hes just got band practice or somthing im going to mail him after i write this.lol rach has just signed in and is not talking to me.see i told u she is making no atempt at all. oh well like i said she just doesnt care.it was great to spend time with heather and dukey today im going to miss them somthing awful!anyway better go and mail bg. write later x x x