"Love is always patient and kind It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or concided, it is never rude or selfish. It does not take affence it is not resentful" I have therefore never been in love. anyway thats me bakc from my "holidays" saw a few hot guys. can not be bothered writing it down i have just been think to myself about how lucky i am with what i have...everyone i know is so special and im so lucky to be part of thier life. i should have looked after past friend ships better and respected the people more.they deservded better. there is one friend that i lost sadly and i know its my falut i have just been reading over some stuff about them and im so proud of them they are doing what they want to and are getting somwhere with there life i knew they could do it and im just so happy they did. Iv been trying to think what i can do to be a better person ... i really need some help but i dont think anyone can help me anymore i need to do this myself.i have moved on tho with the whole relying on boys thing i dont need to pull wen i go out cause i dont need to feel affection from strangers when i know i have it from some of the most important people in the world,my friends. Ive been reading a dan brown book recently called angels and deamons its amazing andwell this is from the bible and i am not religious at all so just ignore the god bit. "God,grant me strenght to accept those things i cannot change," i supose this is how i have to handle what is happening with my life just now so i think that is enought for now im off to mend bridges love you all Eli x x x