Hello everyone how are you im sorry iv not writen in for ever but i now dont trust this diary too much as i dont know who reads it. Iv found out a few people that read it that i dont really want to but i suppose they have every right to. Recently iv been doing a lot of thinking about the past iv found myself missing people like ross and pete who i really dont want to and shouldnt but i dont have anyone to spill onto just now iv not cried in a long time but i really need to. Everytime i start to like someone even just as a friend iam stoped and cant for some reason or another. god i cant write like i used to i dont fit any more