Well, summer is here unfortunately... I might go up to St.Augustine, and visit my aunt and uncle up there. I still have that lingering fear within me, that I am somehow goin to lose the one person I love with all my heart. And I'm now also afraid he doesnt feel the same. I met this other guy named Seth on Vampire Freaks a few days ago, and he thinks im pretty. We've done nothing but talk all night. he lives 45 minutes away from me ... I got to talk to matt again! *Squeals* But him and his boyfriend broke up... I feel bad, because he really loved him. But,he is a important to me as my brother ... and wow, thats so much. I really am gunna miss school, well, my friends. Hah. I dont even know if Im passing or not. Bloody hell... Oh god ... what a fairytale I'm dreaming ... (Switching subjects extremely fast...) Its just like whoa. I dont know. And I know I havent written in FOREVER. Mike is leaving tomorrow for seabring. I wont see him for the next 2 weeks. Last night, we sat, while I talked to Seth, and messed around. Oh my god was that FUN! He was pretending to be the hulk... and you know what I have noticed? All the guys I like, like mike. MY MIKE. The one I have just recently started hanging out with again. WTH?! ugh, I dont get it at all. But hey they dont see him as much as I do. Oh well..... Anyway, besides that ... nothing intresting .... I guess you can say i havent been 'depressed' in about 3 days. And becca is coming home today.... *le Sigh*