I dont have a girlfriend anymore. And I think I'm going to lose my best friend. Well, to start off with the girlfriend thing ... Chelsea and josh had come over, and we were playing and shit, then mike came, and she was hanging on him, and shit, and then we went to mikes. Mike gave chelsea and josh swimming shit, so we could go swimming, now, mind you, she was happy to see MIKE not ME. Anyway, I took awhile, cos I went home, and I was hanging with Becca. After I went there, we swam, and had "fun" until her and josh got into a fight, 30 minutes later, she was fucking all over him, making out with him, and god knows what else. She practically SCREWED the guy in the fucking pool. Anyway .... after awhile they got into another fight, and wouldnt talk to eachother, and he was pushing her away from him, wouldnt touch her, whatever. Well I left. And my mom told me and becca to take out some trash. She called me cell, and told me to meet her up at the pool hall, which is by the dump. Well, she was crying, and all upset, she was afraid to lose Josh, and what the fuck ever. I held her, and wiped her tears, and then she fucking TOOK OUT THE CELL AND FUCKIN CALLED ASHLEY. I was shot down, and she WALKED AWAY. So I went home, and was pissed, and shit. Becca tried to get us to talk, she ran back and forth, and tried to get us together, I literally gave myself wrist burns from yanking so hard. Well, Becca ran back to her, and told her I was upset. I was choking back fucking tears. And whatever. So I finally agreed to talk to her, she was sitting in the middle of the road, and I sat next to her, and I layed my head on hers, and she took my hand, and she said she was sorry. And after that, she got up and walked away, AGAIN. Now, I was silently just .... letting the tears roll down my cheeks, and I went home again. My mokm told me to take out the rest of the trash, and I did. And becca came with me, trying to make me feel better, and THERE SHE WAS hugging Josh, kissing him, walking past me, like I wasn't there .... my heart sank to my stomach .... and I was like "FEELS GREAT TO BE IGNORED". Tuesday, she had ashley call me and tell me she was breaking up with me for chelsea, and, that it isnt because of her. WHICH OBVIOUSLY IS BECAUSE OF HER. The losibg bgest friend thing, is easy to explain. Seth never gets on anymore, and when he does, he ends up snapping at me so bad, that I just want to wither up and die. So, thats my lovely week last week. Great, isn't it? Matt, has been nothing but nice to me, which I'm greatful for, but, I just .. don't feel right... I'm gunna go ... Need to cry some more...