Wow. I tell myself I wont fall in love anymore, and I did yet again. But its an oxymoron, you cant tell yourself to not love, just ;like you tell yourself not to cry. Or, not to eat or listen to Music. I think I've rea;lly fallen for him, you guyts. And I cant help it. I tried today, to stay away from him, but it didnt work. Today in lunch, I sat all the way across the room. And then he was flirting with Yvette. I bit Zach, so hard, I think I bruised him. I didnt want to cry. I didnt want to show him how much I liked him. And now, afterwards, I'm finally crying. I wrote a poem, and I showed it to Alliey, and she just looked at me and said she was sorry that I was sad. I cant help it. At least I tried... this weekend I'm supposed to hang out with him .. should I? Or should I go hang out with Johnny, and just forget I had plans tonight with Ness? I dont know ... I'm so confused... Roxy and Chelsea might go out. Lovely, right? And her and Estefan might go out, too. Roxy broke mike, again. And I dont thinbk he will EVER go out with her again. Matt last night was trying to make me feel better. Deanna is trying to make me feel better now. I was walking to 5th hour, and flashes of him holding me, and kissing me ran through my mind. And the, I almost broke down. So I tried not to think about it. I thought about last night, instead. There was a dance, and everyone was there. They played Marilyn Manson, and Slipknot for us. But that was it. Which is ... sucky. We actually had a pussy moshpit that was fun. But then, ally ( a diffrent one) wet her WHITE tshirt, and he had her against the wall, and was humping her... eh .. I tried not to pay attention ... so I just went into the crowd, or I sat against the wall.... God ... I am so blind...