ok....i am sooooooooooooooooooooooo bored!!! i hate bein' bored!! *sigh*...idk what to do...i already cleaned part of my desk and then organized it and that was almost torture!! i hate cleanin' and i can't believe i actually resorted to doin' that!!! o well...i'll survive!! LoL! i am startin' to get confused about who i really am..i mean...some days i act like really preppy and girly..and then other days i act really punky and my tough side kinda comes out...idk if i like that cuz it might freak people out..i just hope *he* never notices that...it's sorta obvious tho..u can tell by the way i dress...like if it's one of those preppy days i wear tight pants and a really preppy top and like potato shoes or flip flops and if it's one of those punky tough days i wear like really baggy pants and just a dark colored top and sk8 shoes...which i absolutely love!!! LoL..i just don't kno if that's ok or if it kinda scares people...even the neighbor kids(all guys between 5th and 7th grade) are scared of me...which in a way is good cuz when they annoy me i take like 2 steps toward 'em and they run home!! LoL...but that's not the point...i need someone's help on this one!!!! any way.....it's gettin' really close to goin' bak to skool and i REALLY don't wanna go bak!!! i mean..i wanna see *him* and all but..i mean...it's skool!!!! o well...i'll just be depressed and stressed until spring break when i hopefully go to the beach and meet some guys and that's kinda a problem if me and tyler are still together then cuz those guys are usually really HOTT..and uh..i just like flirt like crazy when i'm there!!! and that's gonna be a problem if i'm still with *him*!!! cuz then i'm gonna feel bad by goin' and knoin' that i'm most likely gonna meet someone...just like over the summer...that's gonna be really bad if it's not over by then..which it probably will be with my luck...i mean..i wanna be with *him* but i wanna be able to flirt and stuff too...this is soooooooooo confusin'!!! i need help with this one too!!! well...now that i got that off of my chest....bye bye!!