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*sigh* today was pretty boring. i helped my friend chelsea(breathenomore) fix up her diary...then i went to my grandmother's house to see my dad...i usually don't hav fun when i go but today was especially boring...i guess it's because i didn't hav homework to occupy(however u spell that word) me*sigh*. anyway i really like zach and if i hadn't gone to my grandmother's house i would hav been able to hang out with him...now i won't get to hang out with him until friday cuz tomorrow i hav church and he usually doesn't come outside durin' the week. this really sucks cuz even if he is home friday he'll probably go to the sk8in' rink and i don't think i'll be able to go...i'm just glad he doesn't hav aim cuz he'd probably hav my sn and then i wouldn't be able to write this stuff and get advice...even tho i don't ever get advice!! so...yea...and did i mention that i keep thinkin' about tyler and i can't figure out why!?! i don't like him i swear!! i really need to talk to him like as friends and just hang out with him for a day...i think that would make me stop thinkin' about him...but...if i hang out with him and talk to him he might ask me tough ?s that i can't answer and then get all sad when i don't answer them and the ask me why i can't answer them and that would just make it worse and then i would get upset and he would be able to tell b/c we wouldn't be on the phone he would be able to see my face...so maybe it's best if i don't talk to him or hang out with him...but at the same time i kinda wanna hang out with him just to see if i do feel a "connection" but then i would kno that i ruined everything and that would suck...ok...i think it's best that i don't hang out with him...if anyone readin' this has any advice please giv it to me...i desperately(spelling?) need it!! i gotta go...american idle is on...bye bye!
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WELL IF YOU BELEIVE THAT PEOPLE ONLY LIKE YOU WHEN YOUR NOT SELF THEN THERE TRUE FRIENDS. THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND. YOU SHOULD ALWAYS BE YOUR SELF NO MATTER WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK. FUCK WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY AS LONG AS YOU LIKE THE WAY YOU ACT.BE TRUE TO YOUR SEL.
thanks for the comment :) to get my pics i made a free acount on photobucket.com and then u inseert the tag code it gives u (u'll c wen u have it) into ur entry :) hey btw how did u get ur cursor to haave the llittle letter thingys around it?
-Andrea