HURT SO GOOD Album : "American Fool" John Cougar Mellencamp When I was a young boy, Said put away those young boy ways Now that I´m gettin´ older so much older I long all those young boy days With a girl like you With a girl like you Lord knows there are things we can do, baby Just me and you Come on and make it a CHORUS: Hurt so good Come on baby make it hurt so good Sometimes love don´t feel like it should You make it hurt so good You don´t have to be so excitin´ Just tryin´ to give myself a little bit of fun, yeah You always look so invitin´ You ain´t as green as you are young Hey baby it´s you Come on girl now it´s you Sink your teeth right through my bones, baby Let´s see what we can do Come on and make it a CHORUS: Hurt so good Come on baby make it hurt so good Sometimes love don´t feel like it should You make it hurt so good I ain´t talkin´ no big deals I ain´t made no plans myself I ain´t talkin´ no high heels Maybe we could walkin´ around, all day long, walkin´ around, all day long CHORUS: Hurt so good Come on baby make it hurt so good Sometimes love don´t feel like it should You make it hurt so good Hurt so good Come on baby make it hurt so good Sometimes love don´t feel like it should You make it hurt so good Hey, hey

I am working at the fair this week if anybody wants to hang out you know where I am. (Orangeade stand by the racetrack) If you need me call the cell. I start work tonight at 5:00 pm. Mom is taking me today to learn how to park in a parking stall. Well g2g help the brother with his home work. Thats whats up for now.

I said in a recent entry that Daddy bought me a car. Anyways He says it's mine on weekends and his during the week. Well, Marina, Shannon and I went riding this past weekend no ADULTS. Well if your going to be technical Marina is an adult but not my parent so it was great. We went to a concert in Berwick and then we drove around. Went to get pizzia in Bloom and then drove through town and finally went home. It was fun Marina and I had the bass going so it got interesting. (lol)Everybody loves the car and everybody asked for a ride but Michael and of course he knows better then to ask. I'll turn him down flat. Oh yeah last night when we came home from are little drive Tessa and Marina slept over. It was nice to hand out with them. School starts tomarrow I am excited but worried at the same time. Can't wait to see all my friends miss everybody.

It has been a long week. I'm sad to go home but I miss my own room and own bed. It has been quite a week. I was never bored. We went shopping and I bought my sister some stuff. Ofcourse I also bought myself stuff. Carol stuff for us to share. I'm doing a really good job with keeping in touch with friends online. Well I am excited for school to start and see my friends. Oh I almost forgot we are trying to convince Troy that he wants Jen to get pregnant. We havn't broke through yet but hope to succeed before leaving. I would like to be an Aunt in the future (the near future.) Well all I can say is I am really going to miss Jen and Troy. I am getting more tired. So good night! ~Chrissy~

Here in Kingston. Miss everybody. School starts in a week or more. Can't wait. Give me a buzz. TTYL! Oh yeah I got a car! A 2001 Ford Focus. It is green and I don't even have my license. So happy. Mom is taking my new car to church tomarrow. She better take care of my baby. lol

Hey everyone. I am going camping this weekend it is supposed to be a blast. Yes I don't sound to excited. Well I guess it would be different if the circumstances were diferent. I'm gonig camping with Michael and his family. His family loves me and I call his dad "Papa guns" (long story). I mean his dad watches out for me and is always there when michael drop kickes me if that is how you want to put it. Well lately I haven't been to nice to Michael. In doing so all of are friends no longer hang out as a group. At potluck all of us friends sat together but he sat by himself. Marina is telling me to at least be nice to him I don't have to like him just be nice. lol So this weekend is going to be interesting since I won't say a word to him. He asked me last Sabbath why I am avoiding him and why I won't talk to him. I said "I have nothing to say to you!" All he could say was "oh" lol So all let everybody know how it goes. Oh yes and Carol Sunday - Wednesday I will be at my grams I am helping her redue the front room.

Yes summer is all most over but again I am going away for a week. I will be spending a week with my grandmother. I always spend one week with her each summer. It is like a tradition. I have so much fun and in the mean time get to help her out. I even have my own certain room that is just mine. Tomarrow is church and I miss my Sean! Ok your probably wondering why am I pissed off? Well my computer is acting up and I can't check my mail. I can see who sent me stuff but it won't let me read them. Oh and one letter is from Jared. Very Very Mad! (lol) All get over it! (lol)

~Jarod~ Jarod wearing my sun glasses and being weird! (so cute lol) Me with all the girls that I stayed with in a cabin. We are hangin out at the rodeo. All of us again laying on Sara our cabin leaders bed. ~Kasey and Sara~ Hangin out at the eve of the Sabbath feast! ~Caitlin-Kelsey-Natalia-Shelby-Me-Melissa~ Hangin out at the eve of the Sabbath feast! Caitlin-Natalia and Melissa are wearing my pretty dresses I just bought. Don't we all look lovely. ~Jermey-Jen and fake baby~ In the Friday night play. Baby represents theif on cross.

Camp was amazing. I had a blast but I am thankful to be home. I found alot out about myself this week. I also remembered how to have fun even when people are watching. I found myself again something I thought would never happen. This passed year I have gone through so much. Some in which I have not spoken or wrote a word about. Anyways I realize what I have to focuse on and achieve. I have to decide what I stand for. I met an amazing bunch of people in which taught me how ot be myself. I met Jared a.k.a SPIDERMAN! He is an amazing person and I am going to miss him. He was a great teacher this week. Oh yes some might be wondering about Ryan? He is still as gouragoues as ever. (Eyecandy) Yes of course I had to ask for help to get down from the horse and to fix the saddle in which he was so gracious to help. (lol) Through all the good there has to be a bad! The worst part about this week is that I sprained my wrist and about fainted in which had to be caught. (scary and ouchy) Well still have loads of stories but with out futher a do I will show some pics. ~Sophie and Ryan~ Sophie is the horse directer and ryan workes under her. She is a great person to hang with. Now about Ryan's eyebrows and hair well. He made a bet with a girls cabin and lost. Anyways thats another story. ~Ryan and Brad~ Ryan looking good with his guitar and Brad playing drums. ~Jared~ Jared in his spiderman suit passing out awards. Notice the clothes on the ground to his left your right. He went up in front with the cloths on and then took them off to show his super hero suit. (he made himself) (Notice Ryan is in the top right. Lookin good)

I am leaving for camp in an hour or less. I am so excited. I will put pics on here when I get back. I am gonig to miss everybody but also at the same time have the time of my life. My sister is going with me lets hope we don't kill each other. (lol) Well don't know what else to say besides MIKES a Jerk! (lol) (Had to put that in there.) Oh yeah and Shannon and I made him look like a total idiot yesterday. (lol) Laughing at his own jokes and looks around see nobody's laughing but him. Well there is more to tell but g2g pack the car. Having a great summer.

I am sayin single no strapin myself to one guy. This girls tired of heart breaks so if you can't have them. Have some fun with them. I'm a bad girl. lol This is war Michael! He is going to wish he never met me. I'll show him what a bitch I can be. I'm through with being nice. It's time to show him the truth about himself. (selfish, self centered, jerk, little baby, who needs to grow up and get a clue.) The truth hurts yes I know and someday he'll grow up.(maybe) Until then can't hurt to have some fun. Besides according to Sean Mikes just not my type. lol Well this is it for now! I could go on but you get the drift. lol TTYL

I can't wait till I get out of here for a week and I hope to go with carol to Knebels. I am going insane. I need away from these people. Two weeks till camp! I am so excited.

This weekend is supposed to be a blast. Well, tonight is movie night. Tomarrow I am going to church with Carol. We are having potluck. Tomarrow night I am watching movies with the family. Sunday I am going to Seans for the fourth of July Party. Stay up late and set off fireworks. Monday we are having a family party at Grams and we are going swimming in the crick. It is going to be fun. Oh yeah, and Michael and Nathan are going down when we play football. I'm not afraid to tackle either one of them. (lol)I might have to jump on Michael to get him down though. This should be a great WEEKEND!

Michael and I are friends again. It's funny because we couldn't stay mad at each other for long. He was here the other day and I have been talking to him on the phone. He's Michael alright. He's not acting weird and he flirts just the same. Three weeks till I go to camp. Can't wait! Michael was supposed to go. That way it was going to be just us for a week. No adults to tell us what to do and no kids to get in the way of are time. Now I don't know if he is going! I hope so because he could use some time away. If he goes he goes if he doesn't he doesn't. I will be meeting friends there anyways.

Isn't she the cutest thing! I love her and spent yesterday with her! We went swimming and chased her around the house! I love her as much as if she were my own. She is my cousin. She has brightened my week! Alivia is the most amazing little girl.

~Junior and Me~ ~Me and Ryan~ (What a hottie) ~Michael and I~ ~Me and Michael~

I have no idea what to think. I talked to Michael today. He wants me to call him so we can hook up this week and talk more. He said he doesn't hate me and he is sorry if he hurt my feelings. He told me some stuff to save his butt and made my Friend look bad. It is not that I don't trust anyone. I'm just plain confused. Who is telling the truth? We were talking and everybody just was like ok I think it is time to clear the room. We didn't fight. We argued a little. It was mostly him trying to dig himself out of a whole. I don't know what to do. He is different now but he really does need to get a clue and grow up. (lol) Oh well he's one of a kind got to love him. (lol) Whatever happens happens! Oh, Amanda Michael and I plan on taking your advise. (lol) (JK) But I did tell him and he didn't find it funny. (lol) Well, that's all I have to say for now. TTYL

My close friend stabed me in the back and probably ruined my friendship with Mike. Mike and I are kind of upset with each other but oh well. It is his loss if he can't trust me and has to jump to conclusions. Flirts with all my friends and I'm right there. Saturday I got to see him and it was almost two weeks from not seeing him and I got not even a hello. He hung on everyone else and flirted with a friend of mine he doesn't even know. He wouldn't even touch me. (not mad at you Carol) There is an up to this whole situation though. I did get to see a really hot guy that I know very well and when I say Hott I mean it. (lol) ~(Ryan)~ He was great eye candy while the "guy I am seeing" (quote Michael) is being a jerk. (just ask Carol) (lol) Another plus to my week is Junior he came on Saturday and while Michael was being a jerk kept me company and made me laugh. (Junior your the best) Last but not least to the Friend who Stabed me in the back you may or may not know who you are but I'm sure you know what you did. I exspect you to come clean and fess up. I now want you to stay out of my relationships and at the moment away from me. I do not like that you talk to him behind my back. I thought you were a good friend and I thought I could trust you. Maybe it is best what you did now I know Michael and are probably not ment to be. As of Saturday I have made the desicion that things between us are over. Unless he comes up with a good come back (which I doubt)are friendship might even be ruined.

I am worried I don't want to lose Michael. It is not like I am but I think he only has sex on the brain. I hope not because I enjoy are conversations and are alone time. The fact is does he love me for me or just my body. I mean we didn't have intercorse but we do mess around. I don't mind the messing around just not everytime were together. I am not a slot machine. Everytime you put a quarter in I give it all I got that is not the way I am. I'll put him to the test but I sure hope he passes. Will write more later. Tell me what ya think I could sure use the advice. oh and don't look down at him he is just in that nomal guy hory stage. lol I still love him lots and can't wait to see him. I am just saying the sex thing could ruin are relationship.

I have finally gotten rid of Dereks letters. He is finaaly in the past. I now have nothing to remind me of him he is out of my life and gone. That is unless he emails me because I have no intention of emailing him. Him emailing me though is like 1 in 1000 chance. It is over and Michael is now the future.(hope to god it lasts) To the title of this entry. I am finally content with the guy life and am the happiest person in the world. I found someone who loves me for me. He knows who I am and loves it. He loves to spend time with me and he always looks forward to see me. He tells me I'm beautiful and when I'm with him I feel it. I have never been with anyone who actually makes me feel that they truly care and will be there always. He looks at me with caring and lovingness in his eyes. He amazing and I hope he's here to stay. He says so and that he can't see it any other way. This weekend he stayed over my house. We got to sit and just talk just the two of us. The words and feelings I have for him there are just no words great enough. I hope you now all understand just why I care for him so much.