This is my 69erz. But yea it's almost summer! It s so fricken hard to wait for it when its so damn close! And when your a sophomore u think about only 2 years of school left. It doesnt seem quite long because you've already passed up 11years of schooling.... I mean hey if it all went that quick, 2 years isnt going to be shit. I don't want high school to be over.. You think of adults who all say, "Stay young while u still can" and i really really want to! That's whats crazy, i want to stay young and my childhood is quickly passing me by like nothing. im gunna be 16 in 4 1/2 months just about... woo whoo go me, lmao. To close, i want to push it farther away! Damnit-* Sometimes you just miss all those years you had so much fuckin fun! when all your cares were gone and all u had to worry about was going up to the park to meet some friends and go swimming and shit. When all your friends needed you and you needed them. Today were just kinda all independant I swear. Unless its just me. Honestly i dont have like a BEST FRIEND. The closest to that is JOhn (boyfriend) and my cousin (Preston)... Which are already in my heart. But i dont hangout with them like a best friend, of course koz they are both guys.. I mean I would still like somebody to hangout with and run to anytime for a shoulder to cry on. A house that I could sleep at anytime i wanted without having to worry if they really want me there or not. ... Its just that feeling in me thats kinda missing.. the gap that hasnt been replaced yet.. Partially koz just about everybody in this world at my age has already met and kept theyre best friend already... they dont have time of childhood to keep or make another.. they think theyre fine as it is... i guess im not 100%.... oh well, sometimes things happen, and you just have to DEAL.