today was full of a whole bunch of little surprises :/ ...well I woke up to a whole bunch of little presents like movies, candles, pillows, flowers && donuts all from my #1 sister Jessica Renee so that brightened my day and then my mom tells me to hurry up and get ready cause shes going to go take me to get my permit. I didn't study for shit so I was the wtf?! But Oh Well...I went in there and Aced it BITCHES! So I officially had my first legal driving experience today wootwooot! yeah, ran errands pretty much all afternoon BlahBlahBlahBlah came home, nothing special, then... I get a call from Josh "Hey I'm in Darien Lake w. my dad right now but my mom is gonna drop off the present I got for you so go wait outside..." ...whhhhat? I go outside expecting Sue to come up and there is Josh with flowers for me at the top of my driveway. what am I supposed to do about that?! He's my ex-boyfriend so that was a surprise and a half! I went over to his house because he had something planned for me...well turned out what he planned was to just sit there and watch tv and talk about all the good ole times. Fricken A it's all coming back again && I don't want it to...but I'm not exactly stopping it I got home not too long ago and Jesse calls and he's upset because he misses me and I miss him sooo bad and he hates that I even give Josh the time of day...I just wish Jesse could be here right now, I miss that kid more&&more each day needless to say, I'm all sorts confused -©-