Well, Sondra and I are no longer the item. Let this be a testiment to everyone in a relationship; make sure that you realy know what's going on with you and your partner, because when love goes bad, everything sucks. You just want to have everything go back to normal, but you know that it will never happen. eveything that they said and did becomes an enigma. did they do it because they wanted to, or just because that was what they wanted to do with you? You start to get paranoid and you begin to think, hmmmmmm. maybe she was just using me. but though you wish that your relationship meant something and that you were truly in love, you come to realize that though you loved, you were not verry loved; wich was evident in the actions of your partner, and in time it began to eat at you, the fact that they always wanted just chews away at you until finaly you get to that point when you're just so warn down that you put your guard up and when you look at your love guarden you just see a desolate waistland where you once saw a lush green prairie of romance ripe with the fruits of your labor.