According to Arika, Im having a "Cassandra moment". The way I took the definition of that is Im just going off on a tangent on the subject of "my" boy. Lol. I have these moments, where the thoughts are just nonstop. I cant help it... It just comes. [[Like Im bipolar, lol- ARIKA!]] I get distracted from things so easily when Im in this "moment". I guess what Im trying to say is, the feelings for him are just getting stronger. I dont know if its a good or bad thing, but all I know is that it sucks to JUST sit here. As I told Arika, because I need to vent about this otherwise Id explode haha, Id give anything right now just to hug him for a second... no, scratch that. Id give anything to just see him right now. Its been so intense for the past couple days. Ive been having dreams about "crap" like that. Its not that i do not like it, because it is what makes me happy, thoughts of him always do, but its just when I dont talk to him after that makes me get all blah. Ahhhh Im in love and I just need to get over it. I guess Ill just move on from that subject... I could go on forever... I went to the RILLO today and saw my little cousin Tyler. We played at his house for a couple hours.. I swear, that two year old has so much energy its not even funny! Hes so adorable though, and its always nice spending time with him. Although I was in the Rillo, i didn't get to see my Pops. Im bummed, but hopefully I will see him Sunday. Everything with my family is great right now, surprisingly. Mom and I are good, Im cool with both my sisters (as always), and same goes for my brother. I dont tlak to my step dad, so that's why its good, and my pops and I are on a great note, as usual. Its kinda nice not having to deal with my step dad... it takes so much tension away from everything. Ahhh Im so tired. I need to sleep...