I got some hugs and kisses at work today, mostly from girls haha but it feels good to be loved. I think he is using the fact that i like him and cant do anything about it against me, i dont even know if that is what he is doing. argh! i am generally a one man woman and he is generally not a one woman man so even if i did decide to change the current situation i really dont think anything is gonna happen. I think maybe not seeing him for ages when he goes to mexico (wit a suitcase full of condoms so he has told me) and then maybe never seeing him again might help me get over it...