I feel fucking great again. I bought some weed cause I smoked all that was given to me. I smoked quite a bit of it already though. I wish I werent single but that is not an option. I am the best at work whenever I drink a sobe no fear. Sobe make ou feel good. I have a sobe cap with that on it. It is the only one I kept. I am thinking about get my rings cleaned and start wearing them again. Show the boys I know how ta make some girls go wild. Too bad those girls aren't always the good ones. I am now listening to marijuanaville. I love this song. I like bubble toes better though. I remember how we just used be friends wouldn't give me none but all I wanted was some. lol thats a line from it. I think its funny cause it eems the opposite for me. I was eating down at the DLG when this little girl came and she sat next me never seen nobody move like she did but she did and she does and she'll do it again. I like that line for some reason. I am bored again but I still feel good. I have decided to take care of what needs to be taken care of. Then only do what I want. I have felt so good since a couple of nights ago. Someone should talk to me right now. Your death will be by disappearing, probably a camping trip gone wrong or an evening hike you never returned from. Disappear 87% Stabbed 80% Suicide 73% Drowning 67% Eaten 60% Accident 53% Bomb 53% Suffocated 40% Disease 40% Posion 27% Natural Causes 27% Cut Throat 20% Gunshot 20% Wow that is a lot of ways to die. lol. I told ya I would end up dissapearing. "whats wrong with me?" Thats the entry.

Hey everyone I am still alive. Been busy working, playing pool, and just getting fucked up. Thought I would tell you all I was ok. talk to me sometime. PEACE

I am happy. I can not remember the last time I was actually happy. Yesterday was funner than shit. I woke up, called where my brother was staying, He was not there so I told my friend's mom to bring a paper and I would smoke some hydro with her. As I was putting the phone on the charger, my friend started knocking on the door. I broke some bud up and had him roll a blunt. The three of us smoked it, and then my other friend shows up like ten minutes later. We went to play some chess despite the fact that I was fried off my ass. I beat him 3-0. :P So then we played magic. I beat him 2-1. Then we went to his house and smoked some dro. We played videogames, watched some southpark and played more magic. Then we met one of his neighbors that works at hooters and smokes pot. I have a date with her tonight. so yeah I get home at like 1 in the morning and my neighbor was still up. So I walked next door and drank a few beers with her. We talked for awhile and then I came home and built a really mean deck of magic cards. so yeah yesterday was a blast. Talk at me later. PEACE

I got hydro tonight yay :P I got high with some new people today, Played some pool, kicked some ass online on a game, and walked home. I am fully awake not really high, but bored as fuck now that I am home. That is pretty much what went down since my last entry so sup people?

So nothing new other than work and smoking, which isnt new. This girl at work likes me. I kinda like her, but I don't want a relationship with someone I work with. I think it would get weird. There is still nothing to do in this damn city. I think more and more everyday about just quitting my job and leaving this state all together. I have to be able to build up some funds though. I want out of here so bad, but it seems like this hole has sucked me in for good. How has everyone been lately? I have been living day to day working, smoking pot, and occassionally drinking. nothing else. later

HEy everyone. I am back. AND STONED. so I haven't done a whole lot since my last entry, but I have had fun. I am sorry I left for so long without any notice. Chick moved away so I almost never see her anymore. I am ready for a relationship. I didn't know when I would be ready, but now I am. The only problem is all the good ones are taken. My friend was going to hook me up with her sister, but her sister skipped town early. I lost a magic deck that was worth about $300, but then I found it today. I played magic for 6 and 1/2 hours the other day. I have beaten a videogame, mowed the yard a few times, gave my dogs a bath, and smoked a lot of pot. I mean a lot of pot. well talk to me I miss all of you. Later peeps

I never expected to see that feeling lol. I was told I need to update so here goes. I have been hanging out and drinking the last few nights. I have played games with the kids next door and fucked their aunt. Then I fucked her friend cause we don't have a relationship and never will. she says I am too young so I said ok bye. Still hanging out with her just not doing anything. Working hard. working really hard. Got high at work today. didn't get to stay as late as I hoped. I am gonna go out soon. peace.

I had some to drink tonight. not much but enough to relax me. I am about half drunk. I will have worked 20 days straight when I get my next day off. It is the same night as the roast of pamela anderson I have to see that shit. I am going out to lunch at 12 noon. I am gonna eat steak for free. I don't really have anything to say so lata all.

Sorry I haven't been writing. I have been quite busy. I also haven't felt like writing. I increased the amount of weight I work out with again. I am going out to lunch with my 2 bosses our supervisor and someone else on thursday. Our supervisor is paying for it. I got some stuff to do so later all.

I had a blast today well yesterday now. I woke up on my own, went to the lake for swimming and babe watching, went running with some friends, then played some pool and fuusball, I then brought a game to my neighbors for the kids to play. They made me play it until I beat it then they played. Talked with chick. She doesn't trust her b/f still, Her sister told her she doesn't think he loves her. Like it isn't obvious enough. I got hit on by a couple of girls at the lake, but I thought they were a little young. I want to go swimming again soon. I also hit my toe on a rock and had to pull half of my toenail off. that hurt a little. I am tired and want sleep so goodnight. leave me a message. later

I hate my life. I am only writing cause I feel like venting. Why can't I have a relationship. Even when I find someone that has been through everything I have there can be nothing between us. I just thank myself for always keeping my cool and never getting involved. I hate seeing good women going for assholes. Do you women just love to be treated bad? How can any one expect a elationship to last without trust? I tried explaining that to her. She broke up with her b/f for that reason last night. She uses me for comfort and then takes him back again. She thinks I am trying to break them up so I could have a chance with her. I don't want to see her get hurt repeatedly. I don't want to be her b/f. besides I have already had her. Did she forget that she fucked me before him. I didn't care when she started seeing him cause I thought he would be good for her, better than I could be. She fucked my brains out last night and today she was back with him. She is just a horny little slut I guess. I don't care. I hope she has fun trying to run a relationship where her b/f trusts me more than her and doesn't really know me at all. I need a vacation with some friends before I go completely nuts. I started my workout routine again cause my soon to be brother in law found the weights. I also practiced my fighting styles some today. I had a lot of energy and wanted to cause something pain today. Then I found out about her and I feel sorry that she can't see it won't last. I have been doing wonderful for those of you that actually read this and occassionally talk to me. I have been working extremely hard lately and need an escape. Write me a line sometime. Goodnight

I got a raise today. YAY :D It is about fuckin time but I make more than anyone but my managers now. I went out last night with my sis' fiance and my best friend. We played some pool drank some smoothies and me and my sis' fiance got high a few times. It was a lot of fun. I have had a lucky day. I was given cigarettes even though I had my own, Got to leave work to get high while on the clock, and got my raise I am so happy for once. I canceled both my credit cards and I am finishing paying them off. So I am almost out of debt and getting money now. Maybe soon I can afford to get my car tuned up. later all. P.S. I added yet another quote I said awhile back under another name to my header. its a weird but good one.

Hey. It is 1:40 am here. Nothing new here. I hate how boring life is. Same old shit just a different day. We keep getting older and older and nothing new ever happens. I almost fell for chick next door. Almost. I should try to find a g/f just to have someone to chill with that doesn't have a jealous b/f. I should be making some good money at my job cause thats all I do. I work 6 days a week and don't make shit still. I need another job, but I Only want to take a night shift job. I love the night. I wanna get drunk can I get a hell yeah for getting drunk? I wanna get high too. I just might do that. I am gonna go chill with chick next door and maybe watch a movie. Holla at me. lata

It is 12:03 am right now. I am going out and should be getting drunk and maybe high. Later.

I got high and drunk then stoned and drunk and been drinking ever since. I feel fucking awesome people. You need to try this if ya never done it. I have a lot of energy too. Some girl is lucky she aint having me tonight :P j/k ladies. I aim to please. later

I got some hydro friday night and my new pipe. It is some good shit. Thats all for now later

Life never changes or at least not often enough. I am sick and tired of doing the same shit everyday whether I work or not. I enjoy getting high, playing games, and watching movies. It is just starting to get boring and repetitive. I need a new thrill. I found out I need to get my knife sharpened again. It will barely cut through the skin on my finer it is so dull. Still single. I think my bro hopped out of town. Noone knows where he is. I went to his work to get money he owes me and he wasn't there and they asked me if I knew where to get ahold of him. I will beat the shit out of him whenever I see him if he doesn't have my money. I think I will go play suikoden 2 until I pass out. Later

I went to memphis. Had some of the wierdest shit luck ever. Games I should have won I lost and games I should have lost I won. Because of this luck I only won 3 matches. I named my deck cookies and cream. lol. I didn't get high for like 4 days cause my friend's are drug-free. losers. my internet isn't working so I am not at my comp. Got drunk and stoned at work last night after we closed. Then drank some more at home. I asked my sis if I could drink her butterscocth shnopps and she said no. Then my mom told me I should drink it anyway so I did. I will talk at you all later. P.S. I missed you guys and gals.

Today was great. Had a good day at work. Got high. got some money. leaving my house at 1 pm tomorrow. Leaving the county at 5:30. gonna be in memphis at 2 am. I am going to build my deck now that I have decided what to use. I will start playtesting when I am done. wish me luck bye.

Pretty busy day. I smoked three joints in three hours. None of that was mine. :P I am going to go make a deck for this weekend. I am then gonna play some videogames. Chat at me some. Peace!!