soo i went to watch co-ed relays today. which was fun. steph and chris and fernando and ruby did the 4X8 and won. it was a good race... steph got a pr congrats!! haha soooooo.. whats really on my mind? what else? kevin... the best part abt today was before the race started and while steph and chris and the others were warming up- it was really nice just laying there next to him... ive never been so comfortable on a hard cold track. i didnt want to move at all- even though we werent even touching except for our legs...and when he grabbed my arm or hand looking for his water bottle. its not a big thing him missing the bag and grabbing my arm but im such a dork it was making my head spin and my heart speed up. god i hate this... i see myself being stupid but cant stop. i hate who i am in this. i cant stand myself. i always promised i wouldnt b this person...swore i would never be the chick who goes crazy over sum dumb guy who doesnt even see her. but then here i am breaking my own word and only hurting myself in the process. why in the name of all things holy cant i get over him- hes not that amazing...well he is to me but... steph is rite- he dosent like me, so it should be easy to just get over him. so what is wrong with me? there r so many other guys out there... i should just like sumone else instead but here i am....im an idiot!!!! ok im done ranting for the night so.....bye*