ok so... i was gonna write a couple of times since the last entry, but i got a lil side tracked. last tuesday i was talking to matt online- but it really sucked. to make a long story short he was talking abt the girl he was crazy abt and how he couldnt have her. in the end he said thanks for listening that i should be a psychologist. just wat i wanted to hear. but really its all cool now. that night and the next day i was really upset- i think i cried. but im over it now. really. i no thats hard to believe but sumhow talking to him i just realized that i didnt want to put myself through that so im just done. it helped talking to steph and shaheen and chris mendez, but mostly w/ ethan. its weird how easy it is to spill to him. steph calls him my maggie- cuz i tell him all my problems just like every body tells me theirs. (secretly, i could prolly fall for him if i would let myself but i just dont want to deal w/ that rite now) the last race sucked- i dont even want to mention my time... but im over that too- icant do anything abt it soo...and now roof says maybe i cant run lakefront on sat. which totally sucks cuz i was all excited to run that one. but hopefully hell change his mind. tomorrow school doesnt start till 10 yay!! which is y im just wasting time online at 12 on a wed. but i should go to sleep now so i get sum rest ...