I know that I do not seem to be very active in this, and I wish I was, but I never seem to have the time to expend my emotions. To tell the truth, I am not really accustomed to having a place to write them down. Like Raven from 'Teen Titans', everything depends on my control. On my control of every emotion. Every sorrow, every pain, every joy. even when smiles quicken my heart, and good friends annoy the control out of me, I have to keep the dam in place. Living in the empty husk of an emotionless heart is lonely sometimes, yes, but it seems that lately a certain smile has been ripping holes in the wall that hides my true heart. Few people have the 'Key' or 'X-ray' vision to catch a glimpse of what lies there, but He seems to not need any of it. It is frightening, actually. I am not exactly what you would call 'Boy-Crazy', actually, I am rather boyish myself. I never thought that someone could hold such a power to my emotions and not even know it. And lately, it seems that I have been more angry and vindictive than usual. I apologise, since it is the only way I know of coping with the strange emotions that stir in my real heart, and the emotionless shell that I show. Really, it makes me wonder. Despite all my dating rules and resolve, the attraction and the emotional grasp he has on me, makes me wonder if I would have to strength to say no if he ever asked me. I suppose because I have been emotionally lacking for sixteen, almost seventeen years, that it makes me more edgy than it does most girls, but that's ok. As long as one of us keeps the distance, I know that everything will be Ok. ((And Starfire, if you didn't notice, I have begun to steal your song-title motif. Hope you don't mind!))