"Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling, while missing something at the same time. At times you can absolutly love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarentees. Except that; Smiling will brighten your face.
Laughing will enhance your eyes.
And falling in love...will change your life."
I wanna come home...right now.I just want to hop on a plane and fly back.I am so incredibly homesick I feel like crying.It's wierd.I just miss my home and my bed and my boyfriend and my friends so fucking bad.This is the first time I've actually came out to Florida that I dont want to be here.I think its because of all the family drama thats been going on.I havent been upset in a long time.Ive just felt so stressed out.Being out here gives me a lot to think about other things going on in my life, the fact that it's my senior year next year and I dont know where I want to go to college or what I wanna do or where I wannna go.Fuck dude.I know Im going to be with Steve by the time I graduate too, and I dont want to leave him.I was talking to him tonight about that and I dont wanna mention that to him to like scare him off that I see a future together with us that far away. Hes going to be taking classes at COD and running for them on their cross country team and could easily get scholarships to go back to school and go somewhere away too...I dont know whats going to happen, I dont even want to think about college even though Im about to get forced to. Fuck Im too stressed out to write, ill write later.