You don't write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say -F Scott Fitzgerald so todays date is december 12th 2006. a long ways away from when i last wrote in here and i slowly contemplate why that is.. did i simply stop writing because i had nothing to write about? do i think my life is useless and uninteresting? or did i simply just get lazy... lately ive been thinking about my life and what im doing with it and it seems like im always second guessing my choices and decisions...and i dont know why. im feel like im stuck...stuck in what u might ask? i have no clue. its just that feeling of being trapped. i dont know wether its my life or my relationship or this hell hole of a desert that i am stuck in. everytime i visit my friends in college i wish i was out on my own. but to tell you the truth i dont know if thats just because im there seeing it, or if thats what i really really want. i keep myself busy now a days with cheer/dance 3 nights a week and the other 4 im working. now that school is out for xmas i have nothing to do during the days and i feel useless...maybe thats it..i dunno this is probably the most random depressing writing ive done in awhile...i just need help.