I feel blue today so I changed this accordingly. I am not blue as in sad, but if I had to describe how i feel right now I would say the colour blue. Calm and collected. I've come to terms with the fact that my dad is a jerk. I've also come to realize that I will love him no matter what. Even if I am so mad at him all I want to do is cry. Not everything has to be terrible in my family, and I want to start to make all my memories of them very pleasant -At the very least- for my self so I do not have to be embarrased to come from such a family. And I am. Do not get me wrong but I want to think about them and smile for once instead of groaning and hoping that I do not have to see them any time soon. I miss my motherfucking dog. My father, handed her over to my auntie Joy because "I had no room for her and neither do you." I have plenty of room for her thank you. No more than at our old place, and you didn't give up on her then so why now? I want my dog. Call me jealous, I don't care, she is MINE and should be with ME and MY FAMILY. She is the family dog. I just got home, maybe four hours ago, from a long weekend out in The Pas with Lisa. That was really fun. Her family is incredible. I didn't know families like that existed, mind you, coming from what I come from is that such a surprise? They all genuinely liked each other, and loved each other. Her grandmother is eighty four years old and still so active and jovial. My grandmother is bearly 70 and hobbles around like she's two hundred and fifty eight. "Oh I can't do that." "Oh my hips" "Oh my neck, they botched the surgery I knowwwwwww it." STFU GRANDMA. Lisa's family = THE SHIT. Her nephew also decided that I was his "Giwrlfweind." He is four. It was so cute. I had a great time this weekend it was awesome...unfortuneatly for me I have to go back to school tomorrow. UGH. I DO NOT WANT. Please just let me out now? Please? I promise I'll be good. I'm getting so sick of it. I really am. I love my class mates and everything, I would hang out with them all day if I could but school...it's just getting so...monotonous and I want out. No more politics Brad. I love you and all but for the love of god...no more politics...unless you're going to talk about Louis Riel...then I'm down... I should be exhausted, but I'm really not. I wish I had some wine. --Blue is my house with a blue little window.