the vacation is over. i was so happy i had the funnest brake ever. i hung out with my friend everyday no joke. its 2005. i doesn't feel any differant. i wish it did. i wish somthing were to change in my life. it just seems so monotonus to me. but i like it at the same time. i love my life. just somtime i just wish i could change somthings. last night poeple came over to my house to have a New Years Eve party. Mike, Chelsea, Brady, Warren, Wade, me,Bethany. Me and Mike started this game of Texas Holdem with my brother and his friends while Chelsea went to get the other boys. I didn't know that it would last as long as it did. we start at like 8:30 right after Nicole left to go to Dans house and we finally just gave up at 10:45. i thought it was really fun and i think we should play it as a group of friends some time. Mean-while Chels comes back with the guys and then her and Wade and Brady decided to go Bowling so Warren joins in our game of poker. then me and Mike and Mat watch Spaceballs untill they get back. then we wacthed the ball drop. Bethany said that she wanted to play in the snow. so we had a snowball fight. i played in my bushes for awhile. Nicole comes back (yay) becuase i was to snowy to drive back to Clarkston and anyway who would really want to drive back at like 1 aclock in the morning anyway. Mike and Mat and Brady and Chels and Wade went home. So me and Beth and Nicole ended up watching people slip down my hill at 1:30 in the morning my brother and sister-in-law are going home tomarrow morning. they're taking there baby with them. thats really sad i really like having them up here. Bethany went home to Arizona today. it probably will be at least 3yrs before i see her again. that saddens me. she is really fun to hang out with we have a lot of fun toguther. but hopfully she is going to go to college at BYU so that we can hang out somtime. she is a junior this year so she wont be up here that soon. i called chelsea today and told her to call all of the guys she could think of on the swim team and i would call all of the girls and we would go to a movie. we went and say Finding Neverland. i really liked tha movie. it is really good. or at least i thought it was. it was sad but at the same time i liked it. a movie don't have to be happy to be good. although that would be alright if ever movie were happy. ok i have a really random thought. but i was just sitting her feeling really lonley even thought there are people at my house. i just thought its ok some day i will be married and i can just go snuggle with my husband when i feel like this. this also my sould dumb but... i am really excited to get married. Eveyone has a perpous in life, everyone is here for a reason. -Agent Scully