ok, so i havent written in a long while but i have a ligitamate excuse. band. it takes up all my time. my brother is getting married on sunday and my mom threw her back out. not good. it is only me and my mother living at my huge house, which i hate because the more to clean and it sux because i have 2 rabbits, 3 birds, a dog and a fish. so i need to take care of my animals and well, my mom. which is technically another animal in my eyes but whatever. my school is going very good but i am tired of people being assholes but that will never change. i havent had a boyfriend in almost 11 months now. since novemnber. so this realy sucks because today at lunch i was outside at my tree writing and at the bench next to me is this realy skinny blonde gril making out with this guy. go figure typical. so here i am at my tree, the tree i sit at morning, 11:30, and afternoon, and im writing about how lucky people are to be in a good relationship but they dont even notice it bcause they are too busy abusing the privlage. so yea... and today in health class i stood up for someone because they were making fun of him so i was like, do you realy enjoy making fun of him so much, and the person behind me was all like, do you realy enjoy being depressed so much. i dont care what she sais though because that is the girl that QUIT band. so it realy doesnt matter what she sais, but that realy got me htinking. im already on medication but i am just so stressed out. its hard. and it realy SUCKS. !